After a lot of thinking, and a lot of conversations I have come to the conclusion I am about to talk about.
Let me say that for most of my life, getting personal here, I’ve pursued passions and dreams without thought for personal financial provision. I’ve always put most of my energy into my dreams without thinking about surviving. As a result and as time went on it made it harder and harder to continue living. My dreams have provided little to no income for me (like most small businesses, they take time to get them off the ground!) and so I’ve always worked quite hard at making my dreams happen while trying to survive at the same time.
Life catches up to us at some point, and that’s kind of what’s happened or is happening here. Smaller debts have occurred and I’m not longer able to maintain the level of energy and time it takes to keep the farm going at the rate that it is. It’s been hard, very hard to come to this conclusion. It feels so much a part of me, so much a part of my identity, and looking at it from a holistic point of view, seems so right. But short term I am having to say, “see you later” not “good bye,” “not forever” but “see you later.”
Life events are changing and I’m in a transition phase of my life. I’m realizing that I need to be focusing more time on making money and paying off debts and getting more financially stable than I have been in order to achieve my life goals. I plan to always be farming or doing something on the land but for now, for the next year or two I am having to drop the large responsibility and duty of farming and turn towards making money.
I can’t thank everyone enough for the time and energy they’ve invested in the farm and in me. It has meant so much to me. I’ve learned more in the past three years about life, relationships, business, and growth than any other time in my life. I’ve pushed myself, grown and strengthened myself in so many areas and in ways I never thought possible.
I do believe that down the road I will continue with Natural Ways Homestead, and I will start again with renewed vigor, perspective, and incentive. Until that point, I am having to step aside and be okay with where life takes us. This journey has been amazing and it’s not over yet, I’m just having to get away for a little while. You will still hear from us and see from time to time the homesteading and other small things happening on the farm. I look forward to continuing relationships in whatever way possible with all of you. Thank you for understanding and supporting. More than anything else, the relationships I have acquired are what have really made this dream and farm what it was and made it worth it. It’s been the smiling faces and the, “you’ve got this” along with engaging us, coming out to farm dinners and showing up when nobody else did.
I recently started doing more painting and pressure washing side jobs. I am transitioning into that full time and building my own business with that. So if you know of someone or you yourself need someone to do that for you, let me know. You can follow that adventure on IG or FB under Zach English Painting.
So, it’s not good bye, it’s see you later. I can’t wait to see where life takes me.